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So I'm SUPPOSED TO be blogging about why men and women are so different but I'll have to do that later because I don't really have time to do it now. I promise I'll do it later though. I am sitting at work super bored and we've had... 5 people come in here and 2 people buy things, totaling to all of 18 dollars? Geez.. I wanna go somewhere besides here. It's so nice out. Life has been crazy lately, ever changing! Richie has been pretty upset because I asked him to move, and I'm serious this time and it hurts him, and I feel bad but I can't keep being with someone to make them feel better while the whole time, I'm unhappy. Ill talk about that more later too, I gtg I'm closing the store early, this is rediculous!

sadness

It is truely sad when you have been with someone for many years and wake up one day, and decide that this person your sleeping beside isn't the person you want to sleep beside for the rest of your life. This is the sort of thing I've been feeling for a while and have been trying so hard to ignore. It's been going on for months. I guess, really, it doesnt just all the sudden happen one morning but slowly over time changes. When this happens, then it makes you start to look back at all the previous people, particularly the ones you enjoyed being with, and wonder if maybe one of them were the right one? Did you pick the wrong one? Did you let go of the one God intended you for? Or are they still yet to come? Or is the one your with really the one your supposed to be with? Maybe it'll all work out? Why does love have to be so complicated? If God has picked someone for me to be with, why can't he just tell me who it is already before I make a mistake?